The state of the Mattie
Dec. 9th, 2009 11:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
geojlcMattie isn't doing so great. She's at that hard stage where someone who didn't know her might think she was fine. She still looks about the same, her coat is still soft and even kind of shiny, and all the fur hides how thin she really is (less than 4lb now). But she isn't the same cat we remember. She spends most of her time sleeping (on my laptop, of course). She doesn't get excited about treats (she'll walk to where the treat bag is usually kept but then stands there looking like she can't remember what the bag is for). She doesn't bump our fingers with her nose anymore, and she doesn't vocalize much now. Ok, so the last one I don't miss much, but it's all part of her not really being her anymore. The hardest things are that nothing I do seems to inspire a purr and she doesn't really want to be pet or held anymore. I kind of wonder if it hurts to be picked up or even pet (she's sooo thin!)
I'm afraid I don't miss the incessant begging to be picked up and held, or the brazen 'I'm going to walk up your chest and park myself on your shoulder whether or not you are doing something that can accommodate me', but I do miss the snuggles. Mattie was a very snuggly cat.
I think the hardest part for Jeff is that she wants to spend all of her time right now on my computer desk by me and not with him. He was always her sun and moon and stars, and he was the one to spoil her. Yea, I'm home all the time and she's used to being around me (finally!), but she always meant much more to him.
The initial plan was that we bring Mattie home from the vet last Saturday, spoil her for a week, and then say goodbye. I think it's still the current plan, but I know Jeff is having a hard time with it. I think he sees her not really looking bad (just sleeping a lot) and thinks maybe she'll snap out of it. I think he also doesn't want to make the end of life decisions. I can't really make them for him, though, because we don't see Mattie the same. I like her an awful lot, but she's never been more than a pet for me. She's been Jeff's friend for longer than he's eve known me.
Me? I keep seeing seeing pet food/treat adds or accidentally walking down the pet aisle at the store and thinking that we won't be buying anything else for her. It's kind of sad making.
Most of all, though, I miss her purrs.
I'm afraid I don't miss the incessant begging to be picked up and held, or the brazen 'I'm going to walk up your chest and park myself on your shoulder whether or not you are doing something that can accommodate me', but I do miss the snuggles. Mattie was a very snuggly cat.
I think the hardest part for Jeff is that she wants to spend all of her time right now on my computer desk by me and not with him. He was always her sun and moon and stars, and he was the one to spoil her. Yea, I'm home all the time and she's used to being around me (finally!), but she always meant much more to him.
The initial plan was that we bring Mattie home from the vet last Saturday, spoil her for a week, and then say goodbye. I think it's still the current plan, but I know Jeff is having a hard time with it. I think he sees her not really looking bad (just sleeping a lot) and thinks maybe she'll snap out of it. I think he also doesn't want to make the end of life decisions. I can't really make them for him, though, because we don't see Mattie the same. I like her an awful lot, but she's never been more than a pet for me. She's been Jeff's friend for longer than he's eve known me.
Me? I keep seeing seeing pet food/treat adds or accidentally walking down the pet aisle at the store and thinking that we won't be buying anything else for her. It's kind of sad making.
Most of all, though, I miss her purrs.